Voyages 09 Feb 2006 09:57 pm
Change happens so fast.
It seems that when life changes, it happens so fast.
I adjusted to my parents point in time, I adjust to my childrens point in time and thus I adjust to my point in time.
There are periods of time when it seems like it is the SOS…same old stuff. Patterns set in, you accept it when shit happens and life drags on.
Then it is like…WHAT THE HELL!
Mom stablizes but it is obvious that she won’t be around much longer and I adjust and accept that reality, I’M GOING TO BE A GRANDFATHER!, And I adjust to that and love the idea, MY YOUNGEST IS MOVING OUT ON HIS OWN AND DOING IT VERY WELL, and I adjust and accept that longing dream becoming a reality, I have wanted to do something to this house for a long time and now I have the means and items to make it a reality in time and this spring is loaded with shows for the home remodeling and landscaping in various places and times and I plan to take advantage of that to get a plan together. I have had various indications that I might meet the “one” I will spend the rest of my life with and a few confirmations of that even though I am not even looking or interested in “being found” or any of that.
As I blirted before…”What the hell!” is going on?
My folks will be dying soon, the fruit of my loin is extending into the future, I want to do what I can to pass on my heritage and now know that will begin or have a chance, and I can/will have a home of my own to share with my family comfortably that can be “Grandpa’s house” and be comfy and homey and fun to be in. Even more so for me..
Funny how shit has to be sprinkled amongst the flower bed to get beautiful flowers.
I’m happy to be alive and so glad I didn’t do anything stupid that might have prevented me from experiencing this and being able to look forward to the future.
Feet solidly on the ground, head above water…life is truely good! In spite of the s..tuff…
Thank you Lord. I mean it.
There is a God. He is real and patient…especially…very patient with me. Ya gotta love Him! I do!
on 20 Feb 2006 at 11:16 am 1.J.T. said …
It’s like being a teenager gets repeated over and over again. More aptly is the roller coaster ride comparison, but all of these wonderful comparisons and metaphors do nothing to serve the reality of the situation.
Life is change. So much so that I think you must be the most alive when so many things change and you are able to enjoy who you are through all of it.
In harsh terms, which I’m fairly sure is the language life would use, the phrase ‘out with the old and in with the new’ takes shape. Some would find that insulting, but I find it most honest and only as bad as we mean to take it.
Of course, what I mean by that isn’t people, I mean situations. Those stages of life have changed because they became stale and filled their purpose. Your roll as a father somewhat alters in preparation for becoming a grandfather. Mine moves from youthful son to beginning father. Your parents rolls are the most honored of all, because they are moving from all the transitions of this life to an even greater roll watching over us as we stumble as blindly as they did through the rest of our lives.
So, ‘out with the old and in with the new’ really means that we exhale our spent breath and ready ourselves for fresh air. Everyone is ready for fresh air.